For those of you who have been reading for a long time, this list will look familiar to you. I originally wrote it in August of 2004 so some things have been taken out, some things have been added in, some things have been edited to reflect changes. Yes, I’m retarded. Please don’t hold it against me! (haha)
111) I am a total sucker for men in uniform. And guys who wear glasses. A glasses-wearing, Christian, cop, who I met in a bookstore would be perfect for me.
110) I am an Apostolic Pentecostal.
108) I threw out my television this year (2009) — it was one of the best decisions I’ve ever made for myself.
107) I believe you should always be your own kind of beautiful.
106) I have a hard time saying “NO” – especially to loved ones.
105) I am picky about a lot of things, but I hate making decisions.
104) I love Christian music; but feel like if it’s a song that could be written to/about your boyfriend? It’s not Christian, in my book.
103) My biological clock is screaming at me, but I’m ignoring it. Too much to do, too much to experience, too selfish at this point in my life. Much to my mom’s disappointment.
102) I would love to be an Expat.
101) I have lived in four states and seven cities thus far. I plan on living in a lot more!
100) I’m kind of a mutt – I have alot of French and Irish in me and also 1/8 Cherokee Indian blood.
99) I looove reading!!!
98) When I was three years old, I told my dad that if he caught me a tomato worm, I would pay him $50 for it. He caught one all right and in return, I handed him a fake check made out to him in the amount of $50. Later that day, the tomato worm escaped. I can’t help but wonder if I should try and get my $50 dollar check back!!
97) Also when I was three years old, whenever my mom would feed my baby sister, I would sit next to her on the couch, lift up my shirt and “feed” my baby dolls right along with her. Everyone thought that was so funny but I have seen the pictures and really… it’s embarassing!
96) When my siblings and I were younger, I always forced them and their friends to play doctor with me. I had all kinds of forms that they had to fill out before they could be “treated.”
95) I also always pushed my brother down on the gravel just so he could skin his knee and I could fix it up. Hmm, now I wonder why I am going to be a nurse?
94) I am waiting for marriage.
93) I HATE tomatoes.
92) I can type 152 WPM with 100% accuracy according to a temp agency in Chico, CA. I normally average about 95 wpm though, especially when I am not trying.
91) I am probably the world’s worst morning person. If you wake me up you had better stand far, far back and don’t be mean in waking me up either.
90) I looove Starbucks, but think they are over-priced.
89) I am a HOPELESS romantic fool and a complete sucker for happy endings.
88) I am on a mission to read my entire Bible in a year.
87) I am a complete and total daddy’s girl… always have been and always will be. I am his little princess and I get teased from the rest of the family all the time.
86) My mom and I wrestle around all the time but laugh the entire time. This includes chasing each other around the house and hiding in ambush for the other. However, if at any time I want to end it, all I have to do is grab her hair and she does whatever I tell her… she hates it though!
85) I took the ACT’s my Junior year of high school with no studying and scored a 23. The highest possible is a 31 for those of you who don’t know.
84) My first job was at 17 when I started at Pizza Hut as a waitress. A few weeks later, I turned 18 and stayed on there for six months.
83) My second job was dispatching for the Sheriff’s Office in my hometown. I also took on another job as a clinic receptionist and went to college full time… which is probably why I blew my first semester.
82) My brother is mentally ill. He inherited Bi-Polar Disorder from his biological father… he has also been diagnosed with Schizo-Affective Disorder, and Psychosis. This has been EXTREMELY hard on my entire family… I don’t even have the words… but we have all grown stronger as individuals and as a family because of that.
Update: My brother died on March 23, 2005. He was riding on the back of the trash truck when he fell off and was run over. He was gone in less than a second. My sister’s boyfriend of 2 years at the time was the driver. There is not a single area of my life that has not been affected by this. I miss him every single day.
81) Addenum to #82: I am VERY close to my family and nothing in this world means more to me.
80) When I was a little girl, I used to pick my nose and wipe whatever I got on the wall behind my bed. When we finally moved my parent’s were not happy to have to scrape that off the wall… Disgusting, I know!
79) I have Hypo-Thyroidism and had my Thyroid gland, and two huge goiters (goiters are basically a group of nodules that have massed together… think… a tumor that hasn’t been solidified yet) removed when I was 16. I was in the hospital for three days and grew to love my “happy button” as I termed the thing that gave me Morphine.
78) Addenum to #79: My friends came and seen me in the hospital and I told them not to touch my “happy button” or try and steal my “happy pills” or they would regret it. I couldn’t speak at the time but I wrote it on a piece of paper and that is the only way I know that happened… I have no recollection of it whatsoever.
77) I believe you can be a blessing to anyone, anywhere — there’s always a good deed that can be done!
76) My favorite toothpaste is Crest.
75) We have two chihuahuas, Sprite and Squirt. Sprite is the mom of Squirt and is “My” dog. She sleeps with me at night and her snoring has waken me from a deep sleep more than once…
Update: We had to put Sprite to sleep in March of 2006. I still miss her.
74) I was elected Vice President of Student Council for the last two years of my high school career. I also was the basketball manager, was in the Drama Club and had two big parts in the plays that I was in. I was involved in EPYCS and tutored kids that needed extra help in English Class.
73) Math is my worst subject. Always has been and always will be!
72) I can’t draw, but I’ve been told I have a talent for writing and I love it. It is my creative outlet and I have a paper journal that I keep outside of this online journal.
71) I only eat the tops of muffins.
70) My best friend is my pastor’s wife.
69) I love my two hour a day commute for school. It’s my private time with God.
68) I have a difficult time with letting things go from the past that have hurt me.
67) I tend to be on the serious side about alot of things but I have a very quirky sense of humor and most people can’t help but laugh when they are around me… either at me or with me I’m not sure.
66) I LOVE the ocean. It is my favorite place to be. The power and beauty of it never fails to take my breath away.
65) I someday want to live in Crescent City, California. One of my aunts live there and while I was traveling around California this summer, I stayed with her for 2 1/2 weeks. It is right on the coast – the beach is on one side of this small city of 8,000 people and the Redwood Forest is on the other side of it. You have the best of both worlds and all of the conveniences of a city… but the feel of a small town. Plus, 9 times out of 10 it is raining and it always smells good with the ocean being right there and the mossy smell of the Redwoods floating down around the town.
Update: Or anywhere on the Pacific Northwestern coast, really.
64) I am a small town girl born and raised and cannot see myself changing that. I hate the manners of the people in a bigger city, the traffic, the smog, the noise, and the feeling of insecurity that comes with going to a gas station after dark.
Update: Although I absolutely love small cities
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63) My biggest phobia is of being in deep water and not being able to see my legs… it freaks me out bad!
62) I once left my apartment only to find that the sidewalk in front of it had become the hospital for every bug in the damn town that wanted to have their bug babies. I went inside, got some windex and preceeded to kill them all. It was disgusting and when I went to go back inside, a huge frog jumped in front of me and would not let me pass inside in peace. Every time I moved it “ribbet-ed” at me and started hopping. I freaked out and walked all the way around the other side of the stair case to get into my apartment and when I looked back to make sure I hadn’t been followed, I seen a dead bird laying in the grass. It was all a little too much for me… I was just trying to go to the store!! So I called my friend Teresa who I worked with at the Sheriff’s Office and was nearly in tears telling her what had happened. By the time I repeated it the second time and heard everyone else in the office laughing and realized she had put it on the speaker phone, I was in tears and she couldn’t stop laughing. That tape is now used by a guy named Peter who trains dispatchers on emergency call taking all across Colorado. The Colorado State Patrol, Rangely Police Dept., and a couple of other agencies also have copies of that tape. So far, almost a year has gone by and I have yet to live that down.
61) Addenum to #62: The next time I had to work there, I went in and clever people with a knack for copying and pasting had created “Frog” posters and hung them up everywhere. They ranged from “Wanted for stalking, harassment, and attempted murder” with a big picture of a frog on it, to “Prince Charming couldn’t get his princess” type posters… someone had also changed the background of my computer to “ATTACK OF THE KILLER FROG” with a picture of a frog with fangs and a bloody arm hanging out of it’s mouth… To this day, there is a sign in the Sheriff’s Office that has the definition of a dispatcher on it. It talks about how they are multi-taskers who suffer from short term memory loss… and their only known enemies are big frogs.
60) There are two things that have scarred me for life that has been done by other people to me. The first one is this: When I was about ten… making my sister seven, we shared a bedroom and had beds that were separated by a small nightstand. There was a thunderstorm going on that night so she had asked me to sleep with her. Well, we ended up getting into this big fight and I went and got back into my bed putting a big blue pillow between her and I. I was laying there pouting when all of a sudden “AH, AH… ACHOO!!!!!!!!!” The next thing I know, I feel something cold and wet land on my cheek and a shower of wet stuff settle on me. It took me a minute to realize that she had sneezed so hard, a booger had flown out and was on my cheek. Of course, it was only after I reached up and felt it that I realized this and I started to cry. She laid in the bed and laughed until she started to cry too… only for an entirely different reason. To this day, she still can’t control her laughing whenever it is brought up and I still say she did it on purpose even though she denies it.
59) The second thing occured when I was about seven years old and my Uncle Joe was about 17. He used to pick on me mercilessly… especially if I refused to do his spelling and English homework for him. One day, I refused to do it and he pinned me down and was chicken pecking me on my chest. When I just glared at him and refused to name ten candy bars, he started acting like he was going to spit on me. Well, that freaked me out and I started bucking like a wild bronco and he started laughing so hard that he let it go all the way and it landed in my eye. He had a chew in at the time. To this very day, if anyone can get me pinned and acts like they are going to spit on me… I react like a cornered animal and freak out. Yea… he still laughs about that too!
58) I love princess stuff and kid’s toys.
57) I am a very good cook. My specialty is a Spaghetti sauce that my dad taught me from scratch when I was about five years old.
56) My most hated chores would be doing the dishes and taking out the trash… but I loveee to vacuum. Weird, I know.
55) I never add salt to my food… only pepper.
54) There are two things that can make me laugh so hard that I almost pee my pants. The first is the time that Teresa and I went to Wal-Mart and stuck huge boxes of condoms in random people’s carts. I tried to target people with alot of kids… but I think I got one elderly lady. It was hilarious… even though, maybe a little mean. But it was still fun!!
53) The second of these things happened during my Junior year of high school. Jeff and I were sitting there typing our papers for English Comp. Class… when he looks at me after taking a HUGE drink of water and puffed his cheeks out. I had the most incredible urge to reach over and smack his cheeks… which I did and he spewed the water everywhere… it was the funniest thing I have probably ever seen.
52) The summer before I went into my Junior year, I was one of 20 students across Colorado that was accepted into the Colorado Rural Health Scholars Program. I lived in Denver for a month and attended lectures and labs given by the professors at the University of Colorado Health Sciences Center and did volunteer work at the VA Hospital there. I don’t think I have ever been happier.
51) I smoke almost a half a pack a day of Marlboro Lights. I have quit like fifty times and as soon as I get to college, I am quitting again. I don’t think it’s kosher to work in the medical field and smoke.
Update: I quit smoking February 2009. Go me!
50) My favorite thing about myself are my eyes. They are a dark, kinda emerald color green and brown. They change colors depending on what I’m wearing and/or my mood and are fringed by dark, long, eyelashes. They are my only vanity.
49) I still can’t decide whether or not I am more of a dog person or a cat person.
48) I love road-tripping. Especially by myself!
47) The only thing I remember from Driver’s Ed. is to brake as you go into a curve and accelerate as you come out of it.
45) I remember every name of every teacher I have ever had.
44) At fifteen, I was writing articles on local events such as Homecoming and Red Ribbon Week for the local newspaper and getting paid to do it!!
43) The most amount of money I have ever had in cash at one time was $2500.00. It was rapidly gone…
42) I want to own my own home on a cliff overlooking the ocean someday.
41) I got my first real kiss exactly a month before I turned 18.
40) If you connect the freckles on the back of my left leg, it makes the shape of the Little Dipper. Kinda weird!
39) I share my birthday with my biological father, Brad.
38) I lived in Alaska for six months when I was thirteen with my family. We took a two week road trip and moved up there during the “all light” season.
37) I am working in ministry and have discovered it’s something I truly love doing.
36) I HATE racism, bigotry, hypocrites, liars, most cheerleaders, stuck up people, and people who take pleasure in other’s misery.
35) My biggest goal is to live life to the fullest. When I am old and gray, I want to be able to look in the mirror and have the least amount of regrets as possible.
34) I am a terrible insomniac which means that I am most definitely a “night” person.
33) I am into all of the “girly” stuff… like cute shoes, etc. BUT I can also shoot a gun, climb a tree, wrestle, hit and make it hurt, etc. Can I go into the wilderness and make shelter out of scotch tape and string using only an axe? Probably not!
32) I was in Girl Scouts when I was five… I got fed up with selling cookies.
31) In elementary school, I won the award for “most books read” every year from the librarian.
30) I am a book worm of the most serious type. I am never happier than when a rainstorm is going on and my nose is buried in a book. I am also an incredibly fast reader and knew how to read before entering pre-school.
29) I sneeze exactly like my mom.
28) I can belch better than any guy on the planet.
27) Teresa taught me how to spit and now I never have to worry about dribbling onto my shirt.
26) My all time favorite desert is strawberry short cake.
25) This number will be my golden birthday.
24) My main fetish is locks. Another weird thing abotu me, I know.
23) I collect books.
22) I have had a handful of relationships, but am only now – at 24 years of age – learning what love is really all about.
21) I once went to a Mormon dance with my cousin and had a lot of fun.
20) I went on a Scavenger Hunt with a list of things to do that was copied straight from the “Viva La Bams” web site. I was drunk at the time and got to be the one that was crashed in a shopping cart. Uh, not one of my finer moments.
19) There is a videotape of that footage that has been viewed by my friends… they thought it was pretty funny too!
18) I have only broken one bone. It happened on Valentine’s Day when I was in fifth grade. Recess was over and the gravel is black… I slipped on some black ice and ended up making my growth plate slip which they had to pin in place.
17) The first time I ever got drunk was with my dad’s mom. I drank a fifth of whiskey by myself and ate some sour cream and onion chips and an apple. I vaguely remember puking all over myself and the floor in the middle of the night. I was 14 at the time and ended up having to clean up the nasty mess the next morning with the only thing I could find – paper towels. I had a horrendous hangover which was just the icing on the cake let me tell ya!
16) My most embarrassing moment ever was at my 16th birthday kegger I had out at my other Uncle Joe’s ranch… I have three Uncle Joe’s. We were all camping by the river and it was a full moon… I was sitting so close to the fire and staring up at the moon at the same time and I started screaming at everyone that I was being “Moon Burnt.” They convinced me I should have worn Moon Screen and I buried my head under my pillow and cried… that is another thing I have not been able to live down…
15) I have bought both cars that I have ever owned. The first one I baby sat preemie twins for three years for along with my cousins. It was a piece of shit 88′ Subaru Justy, but it was all mine and I loved that car. It was 4 Wheel Drive and I took that baby places it should never have gone. The second I worked two jobs and paid for. It is a 1996 Green Neon and her name is Gina.
Update: I now drive a Nissan Altima “with the works” and I’ve bought this car by myself as well. Only $4000 left to pay on her and then it’s all mine!
14) At thirteen, I nursed my cousins through chicken pox and they do not have a scar to show for it.
13) I used to make my cousin trade bikes with me to ride past my crush’s house when I was 12 because then he “wouldn’t see me.”
12) My cousin Sarah told everyone when I started my period at nine years old… so I told everyone about how she picks her boogers, rolls them up, and then flicks them. NASTY! (she still does that to this day and is now 18 21).
11) I love to bake, but don’t much about it.
10) I won the spelling bee in fifth grade and went on to the second finals… I misspelt the word “bazooka” since I was nervous, it wasn’t on the list I had studied (they had moved on to the State Finals list), and I was one of the last people standing.
09) I also won fourth place in the science fair that year for my project… “The Effects of Water on Rust.” My dad helped me with it and it was awesome.
08) I used to tell my sister that “the robbers were going to get her” when she was little so she would stop tagging along with my friends and I. It would be like 7:00 in the evening and I would convince her it was 9:00 and that was when they came out… she didn’t stop believing that till she was like 11.
07) My friends and I used to push our dolls around town in strollers and dress them up, push them on the swings at the park, and have picnics with peanut butter and jelly sandwiches.
05) I am giving serious consideration into advancing my education once done with the Nursing Program and becoming a Doctor.. but SHH!! I don’t want to tell my parent’s until I am sure.
04) When I was little, I wanted to be a Missionary, a Nurse, a Journalist, a Writer, or a Doctor.
03) I have family in almost every state of America… and I am related to Buddy Holly and Jesse James somewhere down the line.
02) Harriet Tubman is one of my heros… so are my parent’s. They have been through hell and back and survived.
01) When I was little, my favorite toy was a stethoscope and my dolls.
*Subject for additions, as thought of. Also, I have no idea what is up with the different sizes of font, why it did that, or how to fix it. Sorry!

Hello:
I read the entry about your parents and sex. It. Is. Wonderful.
I also remember all the teachers I ever had.
Your writing is excellent.
May I add you to my links. I will not do so without your permission.
Rod Smith (DifficultRelationships.com)
…. done…, and, thanks. Rod
You’ve inspire me to start a blog of my own. I have to say you’re a great writer an I hope you go far. I hope my blog will be as fullfilling as yours is. God bless